I'm one of those girls, the one that when she hears a song that really "speaks to her soul" she makes the lyrics her background and to the dismay of Facebook friends....posts a status about it. I'm a sensitive person, it's in my nature to really feel the emotion with songs, like the person wrote it just.for.me. Well recently Rachel Platten's "The Fight Song" has been on repeat, especially when I'm having a rough week. Lately I've really gotten down on myself, picking everything apart and doubting every choice I make. Being a creative is tough, especially when you are an introvert! It's a constant mental battle and at times I feel like I'm losing my sanity. Sadly my Migraines have gotten way out of control and I'm just getting more and more discouraged. That's where the song comes into play (get it...."into play" *snorts*). In the song she's stating how she's tired, missing home....then she just breaks into the chorus that makes you fist pump the air and lights the fire again. Sadly I've had to play it on repeat for a few days...but it's so true, it's one of those songs that your soul needs when you're running on empty. I was crunching numbers for 2016 and started to lose faith, I had other friends half way booked or already booked up for 2016...& here I was praying for 4 more weddings, just those alone would make me happy. I was getting scared, discouraged and I wanted to give up-you heard me-GIVE UP?! Really?? walk away after 5 years of pouring my soul into my business and investing my life savings into everything and I was just going to "give up". I started crying and I told my husband I was going to finish up what bookings I had and give it up, instead of agreeing he asked me "why"- I couldn't even come up with a reason, and he said to me "You are really talented at what you do, you love it...why would you quit?"
There's one line in that song that sticks out to me the most:
"This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm all right song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me"
I'm going to keep fighting, even if it's scary, even if I don't know what will come of it all...& if you're there too, feeling like you should give up, play the song, fist pump the sky and keep on fighting, because even if you don't believe it you've still got a lot of fight left in you.